Hi ii hope your having a good day or night it depends on when your reading this... so alot of thoughts have been going throught my head about friendship.. really dont we all need a friend maybe to.. the world we live in today is more of a dog eat dog world if ya dont believe me ask mike vick haha.. but truthfully why happened to friendship.. ii love the frieends ii have today can you say the same..
WHY..
why dont more people be friendly.. ii dont know actually.. its weird to me how some people can be just out right mean.. if you havent noticed we all sare the big blue globe you earthlings call earth so WHY cant we all just get along.. friendship is a bond between to people or more that cant be broken.. some of my closest friends ii call family now because we have gotten so close its the only way to put it.. friends understand you when you dont even understand yourself.. there there for you an they wont stab you in the back .. now days ii guess peopel are too cool for friends .. ii do know this no one like being alone and you only have one life to live so make a new friend .. thas all im saying.. WHYnot..
Me Talkin..
So far ii been talkin about friends alot and thats because friendship is very important to me .. my friends are family now .. got love for all my fam.. ant blaq.. tiff.. ray.. leek.. nado.. buss .. d.no.. justin.. eli ru.. reese.. and more ii forgot to mention.. its coo tho.. the other day my mans came out to the city were im at an we smoked a couple blunts an ii was sooooo happy to see him havet seen em in about 2 months but it felt like 10 easily but it just made me feel good to see my boi lookin good an happy... my girl tiff had her second child an by my bestfriend .. she txt me an it felt soo nice jus to get those txt from her.. as ii look back these people have been through alot with me ill mention a few funny things.. ii remember the break up of my friends they broke up ii think 1275 thimes an got back together 1276 times an ii heard about em all from the 2 am car rides to beat people up to the broken tvs.. 2 of my friends went to jail for me an didnt snitch they could have easily said my name but they didnt.. we used to go in each others rooms an hide or take everything out why because it was funny.. ii seen my man make music during winter break an we smoked blunts .. hooped with my dude an beat him in the dunk contest he kno who he is hahah good times.. all the times we went to the club he was wild an crazy his shirt never stayed on one time he dam near had a asthma attack in the club.. lots of good times .. the point im trying to make is that if you have friends and whenever their not around an thoughts of them warm you heart an soul thats a good thing and dont take it for granit.. life is composed of seconds and each second you have with friends or family cherish them because life is short and when we get old all we have are our memories .. dont you want to have a lot to reflect on..
Music..
yeh ii been slackin in the music department but ooh well .. so what im listening to as ii types is this j. cole tape any given sunday so far so good.. ii really really been on that dom kennedy from westside with love 2 iono ii just like it .. so next entry ill have a lil more music to speak of .. untill then
OUR world..
so if you dont know amy winehouse you most likely never will she died.. yeh another decent musician ii guess dies from a drug overdose .. im sad to hear that but when you take as many drugs as she was well you get it right... the u.s finally decided on the nations debt spending so the gov will increase the debt ceiling by at least $2 trillion as well as cut roughly the same amount in federal spending over the next decade.. im hoping this will be a good thing for our country because the way it was headed was all bad.. this is crazy ii was reading various articles and a man in chicago for 17,000 dollars an turned it back in wow how many of us can say we would have done the same thing.. here is the link if you want to read the full story.. http://amazingnews.org/chicago-man-finds-17000-and-returns-it/561829/
so our world isnt completely bad if people are giving back 17k in money that they found ..
Spoken Word by me
Blind
Wow how is it that you can like a person so much even tho you never met.. She know everything about you an likes you so much at the same time has never seen your face she is everthing you want in a woman because you know the real her.. You wait for the day you will meet her anxiously day by day you long to kiss her invisible lips you yearn for the warm touch of her hands she is everything you dreamed of but nothing you've ever seen before she know you better than you know yourself your the right to her left you love her even tho you never seen her.. is love truly blind?
Oz
1st kiss....
so sweet her lips are as soft as pillows jus the thought of her lips make you whole body quiver... she walks close to you as if she is light as air her smile can brighten up the darkest of nights you want her you need her... not as an simple want.. something like a primal craving... you love the sent of her you love her walk..... she wraps her arms around you her skin soft like silk she looks you in your eyes an can see you, the you no 1 has ever seen before.. You get goosebumps all over your body the hairs on your neck stand ↑ you heats skips a beat you close you eyes you feel the lips of the 1 you love gently pressed aginst yours the feeling you get from this is better than any feeling you've ever felt before... you feel as if your in a cruel dream or something that isn't real.. This feeling is new to you it can't be real you don't believe its real till you open your eyes an realize it was just a kiss........
Oz.
Why....
Why do I want for some one who dosent want me
Why do I do dumb shit when I know what the consequences can be
Why do I think about her night an day
Whay no matter what I do the pain won't go away
Why won't she take me back
Why did I give her my heart an she won't give it back
Why did this girl do this to me
Why did she say she loves me an we were meant to be
Why or why do I miss her so much
Why do I miss everything about her espically her soft touch
Why cany I admit that I love this girl so much
Why why why....
Lonely mans prayer.....
I've done many things in my life but never ever did I ever think twice about love for any girl but now the table have turned and she is my world and now its like my whole world has burned... I must be crazy no girl can ever be that important I miss everything about her from her quiet tears to the loud snoren she was the right to my left to get rid of the feelin there is only one option death... but no I would never do that then again when we broke up I told myself id never look back?? Now here I am up at 3 a.m. Thinkn hoping an wishing about a girl who never wants to see me again... god please bring this girl back in my life.... amen
Oz.
I've done many things in my life but never ever did I ever think twice about love for any girl but now the table have turned and she is my world and now its like my whole world has burned... I must be crazy no girl can ever be that important I miss everything about her from her quiet tears to the loud snoren she was the right to my left to get rid of the feelin there is only one option death... but no I would never do that then again when we broke up I told myself id never look back?? Now here I am up at 3 a.m. Thinkn hoping an wishing about a girl who never wants to see me again... god please bring this girl back in my life.... amen
Oz.
Nameless...
I wanna know if my special someone ever thinks about me..We have no idea who each other is but we know were destned to be..she is the girl who gives me the chills by blowin me a kiss.. Her smile is my favorite thought to remonise... she's willing to die for me I can see it in her eyes.. If the roles were switched id kill to keep her alive all these feelings and I don't even know her name.. Love is a sick twisted game she is not the girl of my dreams but the girl of what dreams were meant to be.. I love her an she loves me
Oz.
I wanna know if my special someone ever thinks about me..We have no idea who each other is but we know were destned to be..she is the girl who gives me the chills by blowin me a kiss.. Her smile is my favorite thought to remonise... she's willing to die for me I can see it in her eyes.. If the roles were switched id kill to keep her alive all these feelings and I don't even know her name.. Love is a sick twisted game she is not the girl of my dreams but the girl of what dreams were meant to be.. I love her an she loves me
Oz.
I mistake to much....
I feel its my fault my mom died... the reason for this is because I wansnt by her side, I've been with my mom since my life started,,,I should kill myself for not being there when she departed.. She didn't deserve to pass on alone.. Maybe if I had an gone seen her she would be ok ant not be gone.. The last thing my mom said to me is please don't go... I said I love youu mom but I gotta go.. the look on her face was filled with sad, now that she is gone I realize she was all I truly had I spent too much time away from her... basketball took the one thing away from me that didn't deserve it mom.. If I had stayed with my mom an stopped playin ball for 1 year she would be here an for that I hate basketball but its all I have now so now its like my first love an I hate it... I want my mom back.. Lesson learned.. when you love someone never leave there side because it could be the last time you see them I will never forgive myself for leaving my mom... im crying on the inside all day no one knows but if my mom was here she would know... im sorry mom, I will always love you...03.19.09 the day the world lost its heart
Oz.
I feel its my fault my mom died... the reason for this is because I wansnt by her side, I've been with my mom since my life started,,,I should kill myself for not being there when she departed.. She didn't deserve to pass on alone.. Maybe if I had an gone seen her she would be ok ant not be gone.. The last thing my mom said to me is please don't go... I said I love youu mom but I gotta go.. the look on her face was filled with sad, now that she is gone I realize she was all I truly had I spent too much time away from her... basketball took the one thing away from me that didn't deserve it mom.. If I had stayed with my mom an stopped playin ball for 1 year she would be here an for that I hate basketball but its all I have now so now its like my first love an I hate it... I want my mom back.. Lesson learned.. when you love someone never leave there side because it could be the last time you see them I will never forgive myself for leaving my mom... im crying on the inside all day no one knows but if my mom was here she would know... im sorry mom, I will always love you...03.19.09 the day the world lost its heart
Oz.
this is how ii feel ...
until we meet again... live life seize the moment walk with a empty cup
Oz.
